Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........................

HI.

(Kendrick Lamar - gnx)

So, the end-of-year recap begins. I had this drafted for the 31st like I did last time but I thought, I should maybe let Tankmas finish first, since I had a hand in that n’ all. Happy new year, fellas.

This was definitely one of the years. It felt like three years rolled into one. I'm not really sure what I can say that hasn't been said already, so if you really feel like reading I'll gesture towards the previous posts of this kind.

PICO DAY

TMG WEEKEND(+ NG office meet)

Then again I manage to yap my ass off anyway so we'll do that. If you are ILLITERATE and don't want to read the linked posts in their entireties I'll do some TLDR type shit I guess?

Pico Day's obviously the big one. That's where I got to meet lots of oomfie woomfies face-to-face, and it's still crazy the boys managed to pull that off (and I get to share credit too because I'm greedy like that).

Caaaannn we do it again for 2025?!

??!?!?!?!?!??!?!

...I don't know. I'd like to stay optimistic; I need something to look forward to so I can keep on living. Lol. Lmao.

We here at the Pico Day Committee™ have........... concepts, of a plan. That's really all I can say on that.

I made such a fuss about not making this year's TMG that I bent reality to my will and ended up being able to go in the end! Still late, but I did manage to say hi to people right before the group dispersed, so YAY

(I owe Pelo a poster. On god we WILL get you that poster.)

And then the NG office... waow. Good time, good people, I can cross it off the bucket list and never annoy anybody about wanting to go there ever again. LOL

I'm really happy I got to meet my friends and idols at these big ol gatherings, make new friends, and I'm happy I got to hang with some a' yous at the smaller meets, too! My only regret is missing Wildwood... wahh, circumstances…

Been doing VA stuff, that's cool I think, I still consider myself a wannabe lmao I just be dickin around with my friends on things. Mwehehe.

Got the homie Bellvon offering to edit together a reel for me tho and that's super epic awesome???? Like I don't even think I have that much to present (you know how you sound a certain way to yourself but when you play back a recording it's like whaaaat) but if I can get closer to a dream come true then YIPPEE

But yeah. I think those're all the highs? Of course there's also lows, though. Life is all about balance, after all, or something like that.

Lows like uni kicking my ass in general(I've never painted in my life, nor animated traditionally on paper before), and me crashing my fucking car twice in under a month HAHA I hate driving so much!! So all my money went to that and art supplies for school, it was really stressful. I hardly had any free time nor energy to work on Bird of Prey, so I'm a little sad, but I got an iPad for Chrimmis so hopefully I can draw more on the go!!

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Apart from the big things, I barely managed to make it to Derpycon or Yestercades or Fun Stop Arcade... Little bits of relief here and there, seeing my friends always makes me feel better.

Until it didn't, but that's been dealt with. I still feel bad about that whole thing, though…

SO! Had a bit of oopsies here and there, who doesn't. I'm afraid my rep's been soured a little though because I'm impulsive, annoying, and very, very stupid. There's one thing(different from the previously mentioned "whole thing") I've been beating myself up over for months since it happened but I don't really wanna get into that? If you know you know, y'know?

Le sigh. I know I ain't the most perfect egg. But what're you gonna do, I guess. All I can do is continue on and try not to do dumb shit again. Or at least not the exact same dumb shit I've already done. Lmao. I've apologized a bit but I really don't think I'll get over it until I go back over there and physically grovel and beg for forgiveness.

But like if they don't want my ass showin' up over there again I completely understand, I fumbled hard I think HAHA

In other news, one of my boyfriends broke up with me, at least it wasn't on bad "we're-never-speaking-again" terms for once. I still love him but I understand long-distance is hard. I actually reached out to him recently, said he's doing alright and that's enough to make me happy.

I've gotten a couple of crushes and I've been yearning over one for like a year and it SUCKS HAHA. Think some of them’re taken though and I don't think any of them wouldn't be into the whole polyamorous thing I got goin on so I don't think I'll be confessing for a while. If at all. But regardless, I'm happy with my lovers as is ^_^

I realize I don't really talk about Ciel or Danny on here; they aren't really tuned into the NG side of things like Bob is and I don't like repeating myself whenever someone asks "who?" agsjagsjkh. I did try roping em in but yk. wwww

Ah! Spent the month workin on Tankmas, there's that too.

...There's that, too.

I am genuinely happy to see the positive reception from the community. The people love it, and I think that makes it worth the effort. At least somewhat. I wish things went smoother production-wise. Ah, well.

Ugh. How do I not end this on a low note, uhhhhhhh

To our lovely contributors, thanks for stickin' around and makin' it a good time both ingame and in the chats. You guys ROCK <3

Never know what the next year holds, don't even get me started on the political side of things, but here's to hoping things turn out okay at least on here. I still love this site and the people in it. Most of 'em, at least. Lol

I think I tagged people last time but I'm sick as I'm typing this and my head hurty and I'm losing energy fast. I was loopy as hell in VCs with the fellas lmfao.

Here’s to hoping I see some of you again in less… headache-inducing, projects. YIPPEE

Sooooo YAH! See you around, if I continue worming my way into community stuff, you can't get rid of me. Not yet. Or maybe you can, who knows.

Ciao ciao, sayonara, goodnight.